Let’s ponder this…


by Susan Sampson

An affair you say?
No, I would never let that come my way.

I love my man; my heart wouldn’t look to another.
My husband is the best; he’s my friend and lover.
My pride tells me that I could never commit adultery.
No, that would be awful; it simply isn’t me.

Then one day, the Lord revealed to me;
Just how unfaithful I could really be.

For my Maker is my husband,
the Lord Almighty is His name.
He loves me unconditionally
and wants from me the same.

He wants my soul, my body, mind, and heart.
He wants my WHOLE heart, not just a piece or part.

You are my number one, Lord;
I love you, I really do!
Of course I also love my husband;
So maybe you are number two.

And you see, Lord, I have three young children;
they really need me.
Okay, Lord, perhaps you are number three.
Well, who else is going to take care of all these chores?
I guess, Lord, you might be number four.
What about me, myself, and I?
Yes, it’s true; you are at least number five.

I can’t bear to go on; the list would be too long.
I thought that you were first in my heart;
Obviously, I was wrong.

Standing in my pride, I know I’m on shaky ground.
Oh, to be humbled; thank you Lord for bringing me down.
Down to a level where I can truly see;
What really is going on deep inside of me.

The truth of the matter is I love myself the most.
The Lord is not first in my heart;
He doesn’t come even close.
Therefore, I praise you Father with everything I can;
That even when you see my heart,
you love me just as I am.

I’m humbled by this amazing love;
Faithful, true, and pure.
His loving kindness draws me in;
Of this I can be sure.

What do I do now in response to a love of this kind?
The answer is clear:
Love my Lord with all my heart,
all my soul, and all my mind.

How is it now that I can heed this call?
I must die to myself and truly surrender all.
Then the Lord will have His rightful place;
As truly first in my heart, thanks to His amazing grace.

I’ve just read this poem by Susan Sampson and it got me thinking. How easy it is to cheat on God without even knowing we’re cheating on him. Imagine it. We’re cheating on him with the things He’s blessed us with. We, as the church, are the bride of Christ. This makes him our first husband, the one that should be most important to us. But somehow, we find a way to put everything else before Him. We put our husbands before Him, our work, our children, our socil life, everything andput him on the back burner. I’m so guilty of this. In this new year, i’m going to try to keep God first. Him and nothing else. Because i know if i manage to do this, everything else, my husband, my family, my work, my finances, my social life, EVERYTHING, will go beautifully. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!


Something else that hit me after reading that, if i can “cheat” on God, see how easy it might be to cheat on my partner? Without even knowing? Let’s think about this. Let’s talk about it.


Happy Mother’s day

Today is mother’s day.

I spent the day looking at photo’s of everyone’s mommys on Instagram.
I don’t know if i wish i could take a photo of my mommy and put it on Instagram.
I don’t think i do.
I mean, i wish i could take a picture of her but not for Instagram.
When she went to Heaven, there were no camera phones.
So if i wanted to post a photo, it would be a photo of a photo. Meh!

I wonder if she’d care about camera phones and Instagram and all of that. I bet she wouldn’t.
I wonder if she knows i wish her a happy mother’s day. She was a great mommy.
I wonder if she knows that i think i know why God took her when He did.
I miss my mommy a lot.

My cousins and aunties are great. Well, some of them.
My man’s mommy is great. God bless her.

I want to be a great mommy too… Someday.
Someday soon.

My mommy lives in Heaven.
All angels live in Heaven.
My mommy is an angel.

I’m going to post a photo of my mommy here.
It’s a photo of a photo.
I might as well

Happy mother’s day!

Whoohoo! Here’s my birthday wishlist :D

*In Madea’s voice* Hellluuuurrrr
*In Wendy Williams’ voice* How you doing?
(I’ve obviously been watching a lot of TV)

Ok, i’ll cut to the chase, my birthday is in November and for the first time ever, i’m putting out a wishlist. This will help all my friends and family know and decide what they would like to get me as i grow older. I do this for you, i have your backs. I wouldn’t wanna see y’all having sleepless nights, tossing and turning, tryna decide what to get me. I love you so i have decided to make it easier this year. I’m releasing a wishlist. You’re all welcome. Without further ado,  get ready for Pamela’s Birthday wishlist 2011 *applause*

  • iPad 2, 32GB, WiFi + 3G
    Don’t ask me why i need an iPad, i just do. Full stop!
    Retail price: $600
  • That extra half an inch: Hair, Heels and Everything in Between by Victoria Beckham (Paperback or Hardback)
    I’ve wanted this book for as long as i remember. Why i never got it for myself, i don’t understand. Since y’all love me, you might as well buy it. No?
    Retail price: about $15

  • The BlackBerry Bold Touch 9900
    Hot ass Blackberry!!! I keep staring at it whenever i see it. Besides, my 9780 is starting to misbehave…goes off at will and the “y” button requires me to hit the gym before it responds. So if you buy me this phone, consider it a need and not a want *cute smile*
  • Amy Bag by Paul’s boutique
    I keep staring at this bag on the TopShop site…i think it’s cute. I want it!!!!!
    Retail price: GBP50
  • ASOS Pumpkin Suede platform shoes (in blue or colour block)
    Y’all know i gotta have my shoes!!! This babies are from the ASOS brand and it comes in different colors
    Retail price: GBP60
  • Carvela Ginger Leopard print slingback heeled sandal
    …and another pair of shoes. These ones are by Carvela and the animal print is to die for!!!
    Retail price: GBP100
  • ASOS midi dress with mixed sequin and mesh
    This cute ass ASOS dress is lovely. Mesh, sequins and see, it’s long!!! Like that’ll be a welcome change to my wardrobe. LOL
    Retail price: GBP50
  • Heavy metal plasteramic watch by ToyWatch in Rose Gold and Black
    My list cannot be complete without a wristwatch. They are still my first “material” loves
    Retail Price: $335 (I’ll go see how much it is at that ToyWatch store at the galleria and update this :D)

  • I also really need a new laptop, as my Dell has decided to give me high blood pressure. I won’t do specifics here just follow your hearts and buy me a HARD laptop with all the perks. That HP by Vivienne Tam one is not bad at all sha. iKid!
  • Then, i want a cartoon tee shirt. Preferably Superman or SpongeBob

Soooo, that’ll be it for this year. Y’all have to admit i’ve been nice as i didn’t include the Christian Louboutin Daffodil 160mm (in black) that i’m currently coveting. It retails at $995 sha so if the Lord lays it on any of your hearts to sow it into my life, then bya ll means, do just that.

You can leave a comment in the comment box below stating what item you will be buying. I also have this cool feature where a group of you can pool resources and buy me an item as a group. I’m nice (say “thank you”)

I also really hate that Ore posted her wishlist before me. You can see hers here. Her blog is great too.


Kamar has the cutest Samsung phone, i forget the name now. S1 or S2 or something. It has some crazy apps on it, like WOW. Kept staring at it in church yesterday. If only RIM would release us from this chokehold it has us in *sigh*


Shoe size – UK 7/40, US9
Cloth size – UK8/10, US S/M (This depresses me to no end)


Y’all didn’t think i’d forget to say when my birthday is, did you. The Boogie was born on the 17th of November…start saving and start purchasing 😀